Sunday, November 22, 2015
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Instead of being "devil's advocate", I hope this in some way is indeed an advocacy of what the Spirit would say to those who embrace the word "Christian". I understand the hesitancy.... even the fear of ISIS and the refugee situation, et al. I understand that many look at this FIRST from the perspective of being an "American." Yet deep in my spirit I hear One who said, "Do not fear the one able to kill the body...." and I can't escape the core fact that we follow One who chose to lay down his life rather than retaliate against the evil ones who abused him. And on top of that, Peter writes in his first letter that Christians are called to follow, in suffering, the One who went ahead of us in just that way. Perhaps if more "Christians" were giving themselves in total selflessness, the world would have a different model of "radical" to consider and a better option of something beyond this world worth living–and dying–for. Now, in saying this I readily confess that "I" do NOT want to suffer! "I" would prefer living in "American privilege" the rest of my days. But by the grace of our Lord, a deeper "I" desires to FIRST be a loyal follower of the One who called us by saying, "Take up your cross and follow me." It doesn't make good politics, but there is a glory (for those with eyes to see) that transcends this world that is passing away. Lord, have mercy on our world.
Sunday, November 8, 2015
Sunday, October 18, 2015
Saturday, October 17, 2015
Libby is speaking to the wives of the aspirant deacon class today. This is her “talk” and I thought I should add this just as I post my homilies. The Lord blessed me with an incredible wife (she’s been the prayerful powerhouse supporting me for over 40yrs).
My name is Libby Hall, and I’m happy to share a few thoughts on marriage and ministry with you this afternoon. First of all, let me tell you how excited I am for each of you women. God has good things ahead. I could tell from the introductory remarks you made weeks ago that you’re coming into this “wife of a deacon” life with different reactions – most of you sounded thrilled, some were shocked, but all of you sounded open and ready and already saying “YES” to what God has ahead. I left that Saturday session giving thanks that God had put His call on you to be deacon wives.There are a few key things that I want to tell you from my experience. First of all,God is writing a wonderful, unique story in YOUR life.My story isn’t better than yours; it’s just different. I grew up mostly in Alabama as the oldest child in a Wesleyan (Protestant) pastor’s family (now you know why I talk funny), and knew deep within as a child that God wanted me to be a pastor’s wife. In fact, my entire family tree is filled with Protestant pastors and church musicians – my grandfather, great uncles, dad, uncle, brothers-in-law, nephews... David and I met in a conservative Bible college, and he was a Brethren in Christ pastor for over 33 years.The blend of ministry into marriages and families is the only life I’ve ever known. We didn’t begin to be perfect! but marriage and family and ministry were blended together in an integration that understood God came first. I remember as a teenager praying and crying out to God to do whatever He wanted in my life, to please make sure I knew Him as much as possible and didn’t miss out on anything He wanted to do in and through me.I look back at 64 years now and see that He has faithfully, constantly ordered and led in ways that were never expected. When we give ourselves to Him and say “do whatever You want” – He takes that seriously.Stop for a minute and think about your family and life – all this time God has been preparing you to be a deacon’s wife. He’s had His hand on you even when you didn’t realize it. He’s all Love, knows what is best for His glory and our good, and we can trust Him for this phase and all that will come.More than anything, He wants to be first in your life and in your marriage. He wants you to know Him in deeper, growing ways – this is a gift, and I wish I knew the details of each of your lives so I could rejoice with you that God has been working from the beginning and is helping you become like Him more and more.God uses the not-so-pretty, hard things for His purposes.The church that we were raised in was very strict and held high standards for how you dressed, and what you did and said, told you in detail what was “worldly” (which meant unholy), and even preached that God could change your attitudes so that you became selfless and loving like Jesus. So David and I came into marriage with the advantage of faith formation that taught us it was sinful to put yourself above the other. Wanting the good of each other has kept us close when hard things hit – when our son was diagnosed with a learning disability and couldn’t excel academically as we had, when our adopted daughter took anti-malaria meds for a family mission trip to Africa and had neurological side effects that turned her life and ours upside down for the past 20 years....Being in ministry together is priceless, but it can open your marriage and your family to a vulnerable place of attack from the devil who doesn’t WANT our husbands to serve God or for the focus of our lives to be God-first. It’s not that we live in fear for what pressures will hit next or what crisis is around the corner, but we know to expect that it won’t be easy. The good news is that God is more powerful than ANY hard thing, and He’s promised to make a way. He does that over and over.I’ve enjoyed some wonderful, glorious times, too, but it’s the hard struggles that have produced the character changes and taught me to fall before Jesus and cry out for His deliverance. It’s the tough stuff (that I would have never chosen) that have bonded me to dependency and intimacy with the Lord.God delights and honors our prayers.My Christian church tradition taught us to pray hard and long. We had family prayer together every night growing up, and during worship services (three services a week plus revival weeks and summer camp meetings) people got down on their knees and everybody prayed out loud at the same time. “Storming the gates of heaven” took on literal meaning. We didn’t use written prayers apart from memorizing the Lord’s prayer and saying it once a year or so, but we talked to Jesus from the heart.When we got married, I thought our prayer lives would blend so that David and I prayed together each day. But we were different – I was more emotive while he was more logical and “heady”. So we prayed with the children but didn’t develop times of prayer as husband and wife for many years. After David’s mother died in the late 90’s during the same time we were struggling daily with Katie’s emotional and mental needs, my husband began to realize some issues in his own life that were lacking. As he was faced with the need to lay down his life for his daughter, God began to show him that things weren’t where they should be in his spiritual life. He was a “successful” senior pastor of a growing church and was a good husband and dad. He could pray in public or with anyone in a given situation; he could preach and knew the Bible in detail, but he found it hard to be intimate with God, to pray from the heart instead of the head.And he asked God to change his heart and teach him how to pray. It’s an involved story, but God did that – someone recommended the Liturgy of the Hours for daily praying the Psalms, and David adopted the disciplines of readings and prayers throughout the day. The writings of the Early Fathers opened his eyes to the beginnings of the Church in ways that several graduate degrees in Bible and theology had not. He spent a sabbatical month at Little Portion Hermitage (the monastic community founded by John Michael Talbot) to pray the Liturgy in community, and more truths unfolded so that he saw the need for the centrality of the Eucharist in worship. Attending Sat. evening Mass before preaching at our church twice the next morning took things even further.God began melting his heart through praying the Psalms, and I saw changes in him as a father and husband as he loved and gave himself in new depths of selflessness. Remember my prayer as a teenager wanting everything God had for me? While I didn’t understand what was happening in David through these new disciplines (that I didn’t even realize were “Catholic”), I was beyond thrilled – this was exactly what I wanted in marriage, for both of us to hunger passionately for Jesus together. By the time he was diagnosed with prostate cancer (which surgery showed to be outside the gland), we were at a different place spiritually. We began praying together every morning and night and asking the Lord to do what He wanted with us for as long as we had left. We didn’t know if the cancer diagnosis meant the years of ministry were limited – did we have 10 years left or not?Powerful things began to happen as we prayed – there was a calmness and acceptance that no matter what, God was working. By the time David told me he could no longer in good conscience pastor a Protestant church because he’d become too “Catholic” in understanding and desire, I said okay even though it meant he walked away from preaching (which he loved) and our entire identity as pastor and wife, not to mention 2/3rds of our income, our entire way of life.Again, there are a lot more details, but let me just say that the last 8 years since we’ve come into the Catholic Church have been filled with wonderful joys. That the Lord would open the way for David to be ordained a deacon and be again in full-time ministry is a gift for which we continually give thanks. I may never be the best “Catholic” culturally – it’s a very large and unfamiliar world, but being fed regularly with Jesus’ Body and Blood, joining others in crying out for the Lamb of God to have mercy on us, being close to Jesus during Adoration, the list goes on and on... with priceless spiritual and tangible realities that enrich and strengthen our lives in ways we couldn’t imagine before.So back to prayer – find your own ways to invite God into your lives together regularly. If you’re not yet at that place where you freely say “do whatever You want no matter what, Jesus” – then ask God to help you at the place you are now, to take the next step to grow into His good plan.He knows you. He sees the desires of your heart. He’s started you on this new phase of heading toward the diaconate, and your marriage will be enriched and your total life focus on God will enlarge as you follow in obedience.God will teach you how to be a deacon’s wife.Don’t feel like you have to make yourself become a certain way. There’s no one way or even a “right” way. Keep remembering that this is God’s idea and plan, not yours. And then ask Him to give you the gift of praying for your husband in a new way. Ordination DOES change the man, but God can be freed to do more in him if you commit to covering your husband with constant prayer. When he’s studying, pray. When things are tough because of the extra demands these next years of formation, ask the Lord to make a way and to give you extra help and patience. Once he’s ordained and begins to preach, sit and listen in the congregation and pray the whole time. You will see God work in astounding ways, and you’ll enter with him into ministry in spirit and heart.
Sunday, September 20, 2015
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Sometimes a parishioner will ask for a copy of one of my daily sermons. I usually do not write them out, and have to go back in my mind to try to recapture something of what I said. The following is based on yesterday's proclamation: